Thursday, 27 September 2012

A huge achievement

I've been busy painting lately and it makes me really happy the way they all are turning out. Whenever I have a powerful inspiration like this, I feel like whatever I do on the canvas is just right. When everything I attach to it turns out perfect and the final picture makes my heart jump. Those are the moments I'm doing it for. This is why I always wanted to be an artist. To create something beautiful, which will surely make someone else happy too it's a wonderful feeling. I just love it!

Yesterday when my daughter saw the new pieces she gave me 2 stickers and told me I got these because I paint so beautifully. Now that's an achievement. A huge one. I'm so happy she looks at my work like this. I feel she is proud of me and that means everything to me.

Whenever I think of her future there is something coming to my mind... I'm working hard to get successful with my art, so that I can make a living with it. That way I could set a good example for her. That would make her so easy to believe that if you really want something and you work hard on it you can do it. Whatever it might be. Everything is possible. I want her to have a magical life. She deserves it.

The first new painting: (my favorite so far)

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Big question for myself

I have loads of questions today...

What I surely know:
- I want to make art and all sort of pretty things... I always wanted. This is how I feel alive, I need to do this, so I always will.
- I want to make a magical life for my daughter, where she has chance to believe in miracles. I want her to believe... always!
- I want to live in a lovely little house with such a pretty decoration all around the house that it makes it feel warm and cozy. It feels like home. (can't see this happening in our current flat for some reason, whatever I changed)
- I want to drive a little car. I totally see myself doing it and it feels great. I'm 33 and until now I managed with the public transport quite well, why I want this now.... because of my daughter. I want to be able to take her to places where we simply don't go because it's difficult with the bus, I want to be free, to be able to go out with her even if it rains (and it rains a lot here), and I hate to drag my little one around in the rain... especially with heavy shopping in my hand...  (I already bought a beautiful pink princess booster seat for the little princess, so only the car is missing : ))

The big question is, what to do to make this all happen?

Still feel like money is the solution (should really buy a lottery tomorrow).
- I wish my art was selling somewhat faster and I made a good amount each month, so that I could start doing some changes
- I wish I figured out some other ways how to sell my art
- I wish someone gave me at least some of money he owes me!!! This gonna have to happen soon! It's not fair!
- I'm a hard working person and hate to say this, but hey... I so wish I won the lottery. It would sort everything. Seriously. I only need some of the big money, I could do so much with it...


Oh, have you seen the new fridge magnets? I listed 5 of them in my shop already (there is 4 more to go) Check them out, they are so cute! : ) They only cost £3.50 each, so they will not make me rich, but every order makes me feel amazingly happy, so it's totally worth it.

They are all available here

Monday, 17 September 2012

New product - fridge magnets

I really love these little magnets. Their size is just like an ACEO, 2.5x3.5inch and they are printed on a matte paper with magnet backing. They are little sweethearts.

Please tell me your opinion before I list them in my shop.
- Would you be interested in these?
- Would you prefer a set or individual images?
- How much would you spend on them?

Please note, these are edited photos, the colours are exactly the way they are on my originals and their quality is really really good! I'm very impressed. 

Update: The first 2 magnets are listed, more to come soon:

Saturday, 15 September 2012

Dear opportunities...

Since I remember I have been a dreamer. And I always had extraordinary dreams... though I didn't realize that at the time...

- I really wanted to study in Germany. I did a semester of the university over there as an exchange student. It was awesome!
- I really wanted to see Africa. I spent there 3 weeks in December 2005, which was amazing. (and there was summer there, while at home everyone was freezing, lol)
- I wanted to learn english, even though at High School I didn't have chance to start it. (had to learn german, which I loved by the way) So I learnt it without going to any school. (not bad, eh? lol)
- I wanted a little girl since I remember. She just started school. She is my everything. : )
- I wanted to stay at home with her as long as possible, so I decided to start a business. I'm still at home, but I feel now is the time I need something really nice to happen to help me to really achieve something with my business. This is so important to me and I'm a bit stuck at the moment.
- I wanted to be an artist. Well... I think now I am. (this was the most difficult one, as I had to convince myself about it that it was ok)

You see, I'm really good at making my dreams come true.

The dreams I have right now seem a bit more complicated (though not that extraordinary at all, they are more like normal life things) and I can look at them from different angles I always get to the same place. I need money to step forward. And then I get big question marks. I don't know what to do now. So in this blog post I'm calling for opportunities. Please, dear opportunities, come my way and show me what steps to take. Thank you!

Let's review my recent dreams again...

- would like to move to a bigger house (beautiful, colorful, inspirational, happy, peaceful, harmonious, full of love)
- would like to start our life together with my bf and our kids (in our above mentioned home)
- would like to learn how to drive and get a small (and beautiful) car
- would like to make a living making art

They are all the same important and want them all to come true at the very same time!

It feels really strange this time. I know very well what I want. (that's important) I want it very much! (even more important) But still it feels like I can't do anything at the moment to change the current situation. Unless I have money from unexpected resources. (or from my art!!!)

Until I figure something out I'm going to do my work. I'm working on some new (and big) canvases at the moment. I'm ready with some really beautiful backgrounds and can't wait to see what will happen to them next.
I'm also working on some really exciting new product ideas. My brain is bursting with these things for some weeks now. They are going to be huge! : ) Can't wait!
I feel I'm working very hard, and the best thing is that I really, really enjoy this! Am I going to see any result soon? Really hoping so! Dear opportunities, I really need you right now. I'm ready to receive you! Love, Beata x

Friday, 14 September 2012

I am ready

The first sign of me longing for change was that I had a haircut recently, not only had I chopped off my long hair but also got a fringe, which I haven't dare to try since my mum cut it when I was about 10. And now I start to feel more adventurous about my hair (I never was) and seriously thinking to go even shorter.

My sweetheart just started big school, which was a huge change in itself. I feel like it's going to bring some big changes in our life. Not quite sure yet what, but it feels exciting.

Environment. Very important for inspiration. Not quite right. Need to be changed. I have loved this apartment since we moved here 5 years ago. We were the first tenants, it was clean and shiny. There are some issues with the way it was built, like they didn't plan how people could furnish this flat. There is a window everywhere (not much light coming in though, this is England afterall) but they are so many that you find it difficult to place a furniture anywhere. I got used to it though by now. I didn't think for long time that one day I will be looking forward to moving out of here. Now I really would like to. We got some strange youngster neighbors instead of a lovely family and recently I don't feel like being at home here. It doesn't feel like a home anymore. I could imagine some changes in design, but I am planning to keep it for the new place. There everything will be more beautiful and fresh. It will be our home. Where this place would be? I have no clue at the moment, but as the title suggests I am ready for the change. I could imagine it somewhere else. In a lovely little town for example.

I am also ready to start a new journey, which is to learn how to drive. For some reason I always thought I know how to drive. Don't ask me why. I just feel it. Why I haven't learnt before? I was not ready. But now I am.

There is a surprising thing as well. I have never dreamed of going to the US. But since some days I can't explain why, I can't wait to go and see that place.

To start going for these big changes I will need some things to get sorted. But I feel they will soon.
Roll on changes! I can't wait to see you!

Tuesday, 11 September 2012

Too many exciting ideas

Have you ever had the feeling like you are bursting with ideas and don't know where to start? I'm right here today. Doesn't feel good. While we were on holiday I wrote quite a lot of lists about every kind of new things I was going to do, and as today, I think I have to review those lists again and make another list... Something like a detailed to-do-list, so that I can focus on the list and not daydreaming about even newer ideas. 

I have quite a few canvases in progress, I should really finish those first, before I even think of anything else...but the focusing goes not quite well. 

This is how I was working on a recent canvas last week. I would like to get back there. Focus on one task. Hard job.

Photo by my daughter : )

I decided to be careful with money in September (and if possible in October and November as well). So the initial plan is to use only the materials I already got (there is more than enough) instead of investing in new things. That means I should finish all the canvases I got, there are acrylic papers as well to paint smaller paintings on which would be only available as prints... but if I do this the new and exciting stuff has to wait... quite a lot... sigh...

I stopped here for a moment as I realized there might be something I could buy (only costs £2.99) and I will be able to add this new product without any additional work, so I can go back to those canvases. I bought the thing quickly, the new products will be listed next week if everything goes well.

But still... can't wait for the exciting stuff...

Here is the finished painting, not listed anywhere yet, if you are interested in the original, feel free to contact me. I'm not sure if I should sell prints of this painting because of the shape, will have to think that through first.

(the very bottom of the painting is missing from the image for some reason)

Hope you all have a productive day!

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Proud moment

She was literally just born yesterday and look at this, she is there with a proud smile on her sweet little face wearing school uniform. 

And on top of that, all went well, actually very well! There was no crying at all. (even I managed it) And she came out all happy in the afternoon that she had loads of fun. Though she only played with the friend she already knew, but hey, she just started, she will have plenty of time to get to know the other kids as well and I'm pretty sure she will do well.

I'm a proud mummy. I feel like I achieved something big today. I have raised a confident child! A happy child!

Painting process - Beautiful new beginnings

I just bought these cute 6x6" canvases at the weekend and had to start painting on them immediately. This was quite a fast process. It went so well from start to finish, probably that's why.

First I adhered some pretty papers and a paper doily onto the canvas. I think it already looked beautiful here.

Then I painted over it, but used some gel medium in the paint to make it more see through. I used a few stamps and at the end I wrote the message on it. A pretty lace and 3 pearls were added at the end to add a bit more detail. : )

The message of this painting is about the beautiful future which is coming to you TODAY! The beautiful new life is actually about to start today. And it only depends on you! How exciting!!!! : )

Monday, 3 September 2012

Changes at the work table and a new painting

While on holiday I decided to make some changes at my work table. It was too simple, not inspiring at all. I didn't like it. Even though I had an inspiration board on the wall, it was not nice.

I'm not ready yet, there are still some things I would like to change, but it started to look a lot like a nice place.

Have a look at the before and after photos:

Original, not really inviting, is it?

The new version. I love it! : )

I painted and decorated the inspiration board, and I attached to it a little flower garland.

I wanted something to rise up the paints so that I can find them easier when the table is covered with paintings and patterned papers, etc. So I painted an old shoes box (which hides my ACEOs) and decorated it with pretty papers. Now it looks a lot more decent. : )

I also listed an original painting and its print in my Etsy shop:

What have you been up to today?

Sunday, 2 September 2012

The big work has started

So we are back from holiday and I started my work straightaway next morning. The beautiful goodies I ordered while on holiday arrived and they were almost screaming to start working with them, though they didn't have to beg me for long, as I was really desperate about them. They are just too beautiful!

The first painting (8x10 canvas) was ready the next day. And I'm really happy about it. I will try to photograph it tomorrow, if I manage it, it will be listed immediately in my Etsy shop. At the same time I was working on more backgrounds and they all look gorgeous. Can't wait to continue to work on them...

Today I went to my favorite craft shop for some white paint and matte medium, as these two things seem to run out very often these days. And I have to say I bought the biggest size possible, which made me feel like NOW, I am really an artist and I need to buy these big quantities in order to paint as much as I feel like to.
I also bought two 6x6 canvases. I noticed whenever I buy a new canvas they never stay white for long, I started working on them immediately. And they both look awesome. Thanks again to the beautiful papers I ordered lately. I only plan to add one more thing to them, and they will be ready too. I feel so inspired these days! : )

One of my promises to myself: BLOG, BLOG, BLOG!

For this I need to sort my routine, I need to read more blogs and interact with more people. Would really love some more followers too...*sigh* Any advice about that would be appreciated! : )

I feel like blogging is very important but I'm worried a bit that I'm not that good at it... Would like to add more beautiful and inviting photos as I see in other beautiful blogs, I would need to write more interesting content... But I decided to start it anyway. Even if I can't include a picture when I feel like to write, or if I "only" write about my small steps... but I am going to write. It helps me to keep focused. And I really need to be focused right now. I have big plans. : )

Right now what I want is my portfolio to grow. I want to paint more and more beautiful pictures and I believe the result will come on the way. I feel my art improving already, it feels like my style is coming out and the pictures are recognizable. I really enjoy the process. I know this is what I always wanted to do. It comes from my heart.

More to come soon : )